Tuesday, May 29, 2007

ok... i noe... i noe... iz been a week since i updated... bleh... i can't be bothered la... plus, nothing to update oso... anyways, just finished my cleft lip presentation and my stupid laptop just had to play me out today... okay la... this is not the first time, iz the second... the other time is the stupid handwash one... damit! I hope this is the last powerpoint slide presentation cos, it can be very irritating and i like nearly forgot to bring my laptop today... cos, iz like... weekend break too damn long liao la... plus i din get any reminder lor! i mean, i bathed finished, dressed up, turn around, "oh, hi lappy" and... OH YAH! I NEED TO BRING YOU TO SCHOOL TODAY!!!" wah... i'm really sick of bringing my laptop to school already lor! iz so freaking heavy although it is a 'travel mate' travel mate my foot lor!

anyways, today really woke up at 7.14am and my mom told me i should hurry get up and get going cos the traffic is going to be heavy... then i was thinking... ya... 9 o clock traffic is heavy, but do i have to leave so early? so i just bathed, pack my stuff then my mother like "shoo" me out of the house... then i reach school i see the carpark like super empty lor... wierd leh... then i go down to my locker then i see like something very funny so i look at my time, kao... iz only 7.54 la!!! wad the crap... so i called my mother and asked her why am i in school at this time and she told me "doesn't your school start at 8?" har? since when? hais...

yesterday went to eat sakae with jy and sherlyn... then haiyo... this jy, eat buffet hor super bo hua one lor! my gosh... if she eat adult de hor, really will ask her to pay herself le lor! cos like, she only ate 8 plates lor!!! my gosh! super waste money for buffet lor!!! and, she start talking about she normally don't eat during buffett time, but the thing is, this is a buffett, and can you just TRY to make it more worth it? just eat another 1 or 2 plates la!

anyways, after that went to my friend's birthday party at aloha loyang... and i drove there... and because i was too 'lazy' to adjust the seat, i suffered after the drive there and the drive back... my gosh! my left hip feels super externally rotated or something... got the sore feeling lor! i was trying to do all sorts of ROM for my hip... cos, it feels really stretched... but iz like, i floor the clutch oso i dun find that it is like very far, but the more i drove the more i felt the strain... sighz... then my mom keep saying that i sit very forward... but that's really more comfortable lor! i mean, i'm like the shortest in the family (sadly) and if my dad's legs are almost the same length as my mom(cos he got long body) doesn't it make my legs A LOT SHORTER? i'm like almost 6cm shorter then my mom la! crap lor! i feel so 'intimidated' by this fact and super depressed... I'm short, fat and ugly and there's nothing i can do about it... sobz!

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
6:20 PM

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

This is freaky lor!
I was doing project with JY, suddenly she received a tamil call...
Then, i received a call, (in indian slang) sorry wrong number

oh man!

will update more later... if i'm not too tired... but i think, i most prob won't be updating agian... =p

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
8:30 PM

Monday, May 21, 2007

I'm freaking out as everyday passes because,
I can't find the information i need.
I can't seem to think straight
Problems after problems keep piling up
School, Home, Church each have their problems

Argh! Well, i got my lappy reformatted, my internet is an on-off thing, and my msn no longer have custom emoticons! i feel so damn irritable... I seriously need to destress!

Anyone want to chio me watch Shrek 3? how about Bridge to Terabithia? I would also be interested to a spa treat... =)

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
9:06 PM

Sunday, May 20, 2007

well, my internet problem ain't quite solved yet as most would noe but, if i want to use it, i'll have to move my lappy to the computer table outside to use it... sian lor! connect directly to the modem... duno to scold stupid linksys, stupid modem, or stupid father... whatever the case, whoever i scold won't make a difference in my internet situation so, obviously, I won't be blogging so often... I really want to reformat my computer, but now that the internet is screwed, i don't want to yet because i wana download like everything again, make sure it is 'MY LAPTOP' back before i start using it fully... yepz... now, my mouse is quite hard to connect... i find it is after i went to this certain website that caused it to be like that... very pek chek lor... and did i mention before, my desktop crashed as well... yepz, so basically, hmm, should i say, technologies and my house don't seem to go very well... haha!!! yepz... now just frantically trying to download my grey's anatomy while my dad doesn't need to use the internet yet... he says he can use someone else's wireless broadband but, i can't seem to be able to connect to anything... all it shows is that it tries to connect to linksys when my linksys is not even around anymore! it is super irritating lor!!! anyways, ya... just here to tell u that i most probably won't be updating (even as often) cos my internet is screwed and that i failed my napfa test... lol...

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
3:54 PM

Thursday, May 17, 2007

yay!! my daddy let me drive to school today!!! HEHE!!! he told me not langa anybody and not to let anybody langa me... i really had nothing to say to that cos if people want to langa me, what can i do? well, i'm very proud of myself for the parking i did ALL BY MYSELF for the first time and i think it is the best i ever parked... =) let me show the picture i took with my phone... muahaha!!!yes, i drove the picanto... please don't scratch my car or anything... cos, i'll be in big shit if you do... and i got no money to pay for repairs...

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
2:52 PM

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

hais... history repeated itself again. And, now it is for something that is even more dumb and i say very childish... well, that's the case and there's nothing i can do about it...

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
12:31 PM

Saturday, May 12, 2007

A short midnight post just before i sleep...

Well, I've driven a total of 4 times so far (driven with a QDL that is)
1 - from SSDC home
2 - from home to school
3 - from home to Steven Rd YMCA
4 - from Thomson (my church) to AMK ave 5 then back home

and, this post has to be short because if i want to drive to church tmr i will need sufficient rest if not i doubt my parents will let me drive...

Well, driving with my parents are equally as stressful as taking the test because, a lot of otha stuff needs to be done in a very different way... for example, when i'm stopping at a traffic light, i have to free the gear (no engine brake - save fuel) when i change gear, it should be just before or at 2 RPM... i will get "oei"ed at if i rav the engine (cos i duno how much to accelerate and i don't want to kill the engine - which i have not done so far ;)) My mom says that my turning is a lot better than my bro's... she feels that i check my blind spots a lot more often then my brother... i feel, i'm obsessed with blind spots actually (oops) yah... i check them unnecessarily too... haha! and on the day i passed, when going to school i didn't even stop at the stop line (oops) naughty girl...

ok... song - Crazy from simple plan... well, something i find a lot of meaning...

good nite!

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
11:38 PM

Friday, May 11, 2007

post number 170 brings glorious news!!!

well, i've passed my gowning and gloving
I've passed my craniotomy presentation
I've passed (i believe) my theory test(but won't know until like 14 Sept (12 days before my birthday! gosh!!!) )
I've passed... MY DRIVING TEST!!! YAY YAY YAY!!!!!

Ok... Actually, I would hvae reached back to school in time to take my clinical test, but, what the heck! I'm super not prepared for that... so, tuesday is still best... hehehehehe!!!

Well, well, well 4 down... duno how many more to go...

ok... let's re-enact my journey of driving today...

09.45 mom dropped me off at SSDC
09.50 reached the motorcar test practical room
10.00 went to car 40 to do my warm up
-did my circuit
-went out to the road with an unnamed test route (haha!)
-went back... Went to toilet to shit (sorry)
-waited for my turn
11.10 went back to car 40
-did slope
-did parrallel parking
-knocked down the front outer pole
-did 'S' course and crank course
-did vertical parking
-went out to the road
-U-turn at ave 5 (outside nyp)
-went back to school
-thought i failed
-instructor surprised me with a pass
-went to watch safety video
-went to take photo
-went to do my liscence
-went to claim back my money
-NOW I CAN OFFICIALLY DRIVE!!!

and, I drove back home... yipee!!!

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
1:27 PM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

seeing that smile on her face makes me smile as well =)

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
9:21 AM

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

woah... i'm suppose to have 2 down... but some arsehole just had to take MC on ANOTHER of MY PRESENTATION!!! is it the power of nurul and joanne or is it just me? haha! cos last sem, another lecturer had food poisoning on my presentation too... this is super crap la!!! after all the preperation, we have to go through all this crap again and again! and presentation has been switched to tmr instead... ba!!!

well, driving test is in exactly 40 hours!!! oh my gosh!!!! how can this be? oh my oh my oh my my my (pooh's favourite phrase =]) hais... stressed man... i really want to pass here and finish with it... today's driving was good though, no stalling of engine, drove in the rain, didn't knock down any poles... pretty pleased with myself... but i moved off in gear 2 like 3 times and i couldn't change lanes in time... yepz... those were my main mistakes... i don't consider the causing other people to slow down a mistake cos, who ask that stupid lorry drive so fast... idiot lor! hais... my e brake quite ok la... hehe... finally did it again after like at least 1 month... quite scared... but well, i managed to do it... but, i keep forgetting to pull up handbrake first... i keep changing gear first... but he didn't comment on that though... cross my fingers and have faith that God will drop me hints ;) no one will know how i cheat... haha! cos, only i will be able to hear God's voice/prompting... hor? God? Thanks ar!

Dear God,
this is a personal prayer from me... please don't give me irritating people that will cause me to fail... please mute all the horns on friday from 11 am to 12pm... That would be most appreciated... One last thing, give me the alertness to know when to stop before i hit any pole and also to know when to slow down and when to speed up... Thank you so much!!! muack muack muack! love u so much! Love you... In Jesus name, Amen!!!!

yah... kkz... tmr is theory test... super not prepared cos my brain ain't at a point of absorption at the current moment... but, i'll try my best... really, i will... but, hais... neuro? my weakest topic... sighz...

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
6:59 PM

Monday, May 07, 2007

I simply duno what's wrong with my food... I've found hair in it like duno how many times already!!! yuck! today i lost my appetite for dinner cos i found my mom's hair in my soup! actually i guess i din really loose my appetite cos i hungry now... haha! but, iz really disgusting... and the one body part i really cannot stand is hair lor...

anyways, finish my (hopefully my last) monday and, although i din stall engine, sighz... i knocked down a pole at parallel parking... sobz... why am i still making such a freaking mistake? damn... this is really freaking me out man... my test is like less than 4 days away and i'm still making such a mistake? something is really not right! I cannot carrry on making such mistakes... my lane changing to day was really bad too... hai... i want razif... but his timings, i cannot accomodate... how lidat? crapazours lor... (i duno what's that word, but it just sounds nice to me like siansational or siansitation aha!) crap la... my lappy hanging like siao lor...sign... and y desktop is crappy... (according to my bro, it should be changed every 5 years... at the end of this year, it will be 5 years old liao but now that there's 5 lap tops at home, i dun think dad will be buying another desktop... ok.. back to driving... well, ya... i want to have razif instruct me for (hopefully) the last time.... but hais... my next lessoon is on wenesday "afternoon" shift... and he's not on that shift... bah!!! maybe he'll take me for warm up =) cross fingers... ai... i duno what to do man... i'm freaking out!!! and i can't believe that idiot is under the dedicated staff! pui pui pui!!!

tmr assessment, wednesday ica presentation, thurs theory test, friday (dang da dang!) driving test!!!

i badly want to move out of the house... but where am i going to find the money to buy a condo and renovate it? hais!!! here i'm so stressed out with my school stuff and there my father is asking me to do dumb sudoku, and then, he's asking me to call up hp to get my desktop fixed... irritant lor!!! really irritant...i just finished the accounts... but i think it is really screwed up! anyway, iz formulated by mom honestly, i just think that this year, everything is a total disaster... he's really making me do all sorts of menial things... if not he's there comparing how dumb my laptop is compared to his... he's really freaking childish and he blows up also like a child... i noe i shouldn't be talking about my dad like this but, hai... i just can't help it... somehow, i just feel only if i can just press the replay button and do everything differently... maybe commit suicide at 3 or something... just feel thiat this house, i'm really not important lor... i'm suppose to give way to everybody because i'm the youngest...here i'm trying to sleep and my mom tells me to bear witht he fact that my bro is frustrated and wants to play the drums... where's the fairness? everything sucks! everything is crap! I want to scream but i'll get scolded... i cry and nobody bothers...maybe, water is really thicker than blood... I've got nothing to say...

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
7:52 PM

Thursday, May 03, 2007

I somehow feel as though I'm going to have a mental breakdown soon... iz really too much for me to swallow... I just feel that I'm choking my life away... I'm not stranggled but just choking... I've got this stupid e-learning crap to finish... to me iz like, normal lectures oso got no assignments, why must this crap shit have assignment? And I seriously don't understand a piece of crap what they're talking about and they don't even clearly state which assy module it is! better yet... I'm not even suppose to have that module today!!! Stupid ee dzu... crap ass la! It does make me feel like just wanting to end my life just like that... Why take on all this stress? what good does it do for me? shit you know?! Argh! my head just wants to explode

my dog has yet to go for her annual vaccination, I've got accounts to handle, i've NOT started to study for my theory test, I've got my practical assessment on tuesday, i've got a graded presentation on wednesday i've got my theory test on thursday and i've got my driving test on friday... how else can i die?

//[C]onstant [M]isunderstanding//
9:03 PM